I always have the urge to clean up my life so that I can understand and see everything clearly. I am not certain why I think I don’t have a clear sense of direction in life; I have an amazing life.
I like to live more than dying or death even!
I was so disappointed in my life that I wanted to start again what is important to me. I know I shouldn’t feel that way. I miss you guys very much. I want to apologize for leaving everyone so suddenly. I didn’t know how to say goodbye properly. I didn’t think I should ask someone to help me make a decision for my life choices.
I felt like a complete failure and I wanted a fresh start in life at 30 years old!!!
Anyway, I hope you can understand that I am also growing.
I understand what I did was wrong. I just don’t know what to do after apologizing.
Sometimes, I think I just need help understand my life choices and not leaving everything to waste and make myself think a certain way, too. That was hazardous!